Listen to This When Life Gets Heavy
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Hey, loves. With the holidays creeping up on us it’s easy to sink into situational depression. In this episode, I open up about my depression: the downs, the ups, the ways it has held me hostage, and how I keep pushing (even when there is little push left).
The Downs
Normally I try to go with the ebbs and flows of life. The ups and downs. But most of the time you never really know that you’ve even been up until the down comes.
The downs make it hard for me to show up for myself and others.
For me, the down comes when the leaves start to turn brown and fall to the ground.
The down has often made me wonder if life were better on the other side. I think about Heaven a lot. I think about my mother. And I wonder if Heaven is as draining as this life.
It’s hard to work through all of these thoughts while going about my day like I’m okay.
Here’s the Truth
I ain't got no real tips for you this week. Like I said in episode one, I'm still healing too. The shit absolutely sucks.
Here’s how I manage to keep pushing when I have no push left: I accept my truth. And the truth is that I am allowed to be both a masterpiece and a work in progress at the same damn time.
I’m not ashamed of the fact that sometimes my brain hurts from all the unpacking and healing that’s needed for me to show up as an emotionally intelligent human being ready to interact with you.
I owe it to myself to feel the feelings. Because I know it’s the only way the up will come.
The trick in all of this is to be a little gentler to me. I deserve love and laughter from people. I am worthy of it all.
I know that I don’t have to be any certain kind of way for you to love me. That’s the joy in this crazy life. I am enough, regardless.
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